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The days just pass by and I feel like I am floating while everyone else is getting on with there day. Before I know it the kids have gone to bed and I don't no where the day has gone. I sit and think if I actually achieved anything that day and most of the time the answer is no.
Being a mum will always be my number one priority, that is a given and the kids are my biggest achievement. But what I refer to is what have I personally achieved. At the moment I feel like I am just making it through life with no real meaning. Before you start to worry that this post is sounding very down, I am not depressed but at the same time I feel like things could be improved.
My husband works two jobs to support our family and this is taking an increasing toll on all of us. The children don't get to see him apart from first thing in the morning and on the weekends which just isn't fair on them. Childcare is such a huge issue for us and its a subject that makes me so angry and frustrated.
When I sit down at night when the kids have gone to bed and my husband isn't there to share the evening with, well it's horrible. Other people are in much worse situations than us but it's still so hard.
I feel drained. Drained from financially struggling to make ends meet, from trying to balance everything and from feeling like I am failing constantly.
I feel like a change has to happen, it's all just too much. I can't bear to see my husband run into the ground or the fact he doesn't get to see the kids enough. But how do I make things better, I wish I had an answer to that. I really do.