Wednesday, 19 April 2017
Caesarean Awareness Month
Looking at this picture two and a half years later I can still remember exactly how I felt. Isabelle had of course visited us in hospital but this was the first picture of us reunited at home. My first born was now suddenly a big sister and I was over whelmed with love for both of my children. But there is another side to this picture too. I was in total agony. I had forced myself to go home after two days stuck in hospital but just as I was being discharged I said to the midwife that I was in so much pain that I needed more pain relief. I was already up to my eyeballs in paracetamol and ibuprofen and if I had liquid morphine I would have to stay in hospital. No, I was determined to get home but once I was there I got into a panic of how on earth am I going to do this.
Even though I had an elective caesarean due to huge complications with my first child nothing prepared me for what I was going to go through. You don't realise just how much your body is going to have to deal with. Some people still consider caesareans to be the easy option but let me tell you that couldn't be further from the truth. You are having major surgery, you are left with a stitched/stapled stomach, you can be on pain killers for weeks and then you have to try to pull yourself back together to look after a new born.
There is not enough awareness of caesareans. I think all pregnant mothers should be given information to at least prepare them. It is incredibly daunting/scary when you are suddenly told you have to have an emergency caesarean or a planned one due to medical reasons. I was not given any advise or information leading up to the planned date to have Charlie.
A caesarean was what was right for me and what was safest second time round. It's also important to remember that it is possible to have a vaginal birth after having a caesarean if that is what you want to do. My scar is now barely visible but it has left me with an empowering reminder that it is there because I brought my child into the world.