Wednesday, 6 December 2017

One year of blogging & turning thirty!

I can't believe it, one year of blogging! Some how, apart from a few occasions, I have managed to write a minimum of one post a week for a year. This blog has helped me to get my feeling out into the world at some pretty difficult times. I have been able to vent about how hard being a Mother is sometimes, I have shared my mental health battle and I am so proud of myself for staying committed to this.

Today I also turn thirty. The big 30, I'm still not sure how I feel about it. Up until the weekend I had been so OK with it and then as I write this (the day before my birthday) I feel so anxious. Am I where I want to be, have I done everything I wanted to by the the time I reached this age? The answer honestly, is no but I'm OK with that. You cannot plan the way life is going to pan out and even though there are some regrets you just can't live like that.

The past ten years have brought so many up's and down but life would be very boring if it had been completely straight forward. I got married, had two beautiful children, bought my first home and finally learnt that it's more important to surround yourself with positive, uplifting people than trying to please everyone. If people want to be in your life they will, you just can't force it. This has meant saying goodbye to a few people that I never thought I would ever have too but I feel so much better for it. I have learnt to appreciate the simple things and my family will always come before anything.

What would I like the next ten years to bring is what I have been finding myself thinking, more so than thinking of the past. Now that both children will soon be in school, I would like to focus on me. Not in a selfish way but to find out what I want to do with the rest of my life as right now I have no idea.

I want to carry on with this blog, especially spreading awareness about mental health and sharing the highs and lows of being a Mummy. I can confidently say that right now I feel content with my life and tonight and also this weekend I'm going to celebrate me and the fact that I have made it this far.

Thank you so much if you have followed my journey over the past year and for your ongoing support, it means a great deal to me. So here's to turning the dirty thirty!

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