Thursday, 4 January 2018
It's time to stop playing it safe
Something has been playing on my mind recently so I thought that I would share it. Over the first year of blogging I have found that my mental health posts have been so easy to write and 'put out there' due to it being something that I am so passionate about. But posts about parenting and motherhood seemed to have taken a step back and I believe there is a reason for this. Being judged.
I seem to have allowed myself to get caught up in the worrying of what others may think if I truly open up about being a Mum. At some point in every parents life we all go through similar situations with our kids but some think it should be kept on the down low. We should be ashamed if we admit that being a parent is bloody hard! This could not be more wrong.
But I finally feel after a year of doing this that I need to stick two fingers up to the small percentage that will judge me and fully open up on this blog and share my parental struggles. No more playing it safe, this is my personal space to write about whatever it is that's on my mind.
This blog is called Honest Motherhood after all and I already feel so much better just for getting this off my chest. I need to feel that I am able to share the highs as well as the lows and that's going to start from now on. I spend so much time worrying about what others might think that I forget that this is my life, I need to live it and be 100% true to myself.
Right now I am struggling to know where I now fit in as 'Mummy'. With Isabelle at school and Charlie going off to nursery, I suddenly feel like I need to find myself again. When Isabelle went off to school I always knew that I still had Charlie and as selfish as it sounds I wish he could stay with me for a little longer. But that's me being scared to face the reality and to break from a long standing routine. Anyway I will continue this in a blog post of it's own but I have mentioned it because I think it's part of the reason I now feel like saying stuff it and taking control back of this blog. It's something that is mine and I'm proud of it.